In the beginning...
And so here it is, my new blog. And I have absolutely no idea where to start. I turned 39 four days ago. I am still carrying the baby weight - my youngest baby is now 2.5 years old! I am suffering with mild anxiety/depression. I have forgotten who I am, what I like, what I enjoy. Happiness seems to be fairly elusive for me these days.
So my plan is to take the next 12 months and focus on me, not to the detriment of my family of course. But because I am a fairly obsessive person, get me started on something and I will research, read, watch videos, read, and read some more, in a generally obsessive manner, I have decided to put it to good use - me.
This will compose two parts - me physically, and me mentally/emotionally. My goals are to lose weight; an absolute minimum of 25lbs (to get me back to pre-baby weight) but ideally 35lbs (I was at the top end of "normal weight" before). I want to feel fit and healthy and strong - and happy when I look in the mirror. I badly want to fit back into the clothes I have had hanging in my wardrobe for over 3 years now. I also want to rediscover who I am. What do I enjoy doing in my spare time? What hobbies give me joy? I want to be able to talk passionately about something - and not about how tired I am! And probably most importantly, I want to be happy. I want to fight the well of sadness that seems to have lodged itself somewhere in my middle, and be happy again. I am so fortunate - a loving husband, two gorgeous and healthy children, a beautiful house that many would be envious of, a well-paying job that is flexible, family, friends, my health and that of the people I love.
For now, I'm going to just write (type) without re-reading my words. This is my online journal of my journey. I decided during the dog walk I just returned from, that I will undertake this journey with grace, with patience and with loving kindness.
So, thoughts. I have started by making some simple changes. I have cut out carbs from my lunch and dinner - no bread, pasta, rice, potatoes, cous cous, etc. I am cutting down "treats" aka junk like crisps and chocolate and cake. I do a basic intermittent fasting, in so much that we all do - overnight while we sleep, from after dinner until about 9.30am or 10am. However, I do crack open a can of coke zero every morning by around 9am. This is my version of tea or coffee as I drink neither, and I have no plans to cut that out as yet. However, I do want to push it back until at least 10am, and to drink more water. Sometimes I realise that I only have my first proper drink of water in the late morning, or occasionally after lunch.
I have committed to spending 30 minutes twice a week on our stationary bike - I try to do a form of HIIT, by varying the speed and intensity, but for now, I just want to be in the habit, rather than pushing too much too soon.
I am making my own lunches for work - partly for health reasons and partly to save money - Boots Meal Deals add up!
What else? I have a bought a gratitude journal, I think its called The Three Minute Diary, or something like that. I am determined to make this a daily habit. This is for my emotional well-being. To focus on that which I am grateful for.
And for now, that's enough.
So my plan is to take the next 12 months and focus on me, not to the detriment of my family of course. But because I am a fairly obsessive person, get me started on something and I will research, read, watch videos, read, and read some more, in a generally obsessive manner, I have decided to put it to good use - me.
This will compose two parts - me physically, and me mentally/emotionally. My goals are to lose weight; an absolute minimum of 25lbs (to get me back to pre-baby weight) but ideally 35lbs (I was at the top end of "normal weight" before). I want to feel fit and healthy and strong - and happy when I look in the mirror. I badly want to fit back into the clothes I have had hanging in my wardrobe for over 3 years now. I also want to rediscover who I am. What do I enjoy doing in my spare time? What hobbies give me joy? I want to be able to talk passionately about something - and not about how tired I am! And probably most importantly, I want to be happy. I want to fight the well of sadness that seems to have lodged itself somewhere in my middle, and be happy again. I am so fortunate - a loving husband, two gorgeous and healthy children, a beautiful house that many would be envious of, a well-paying job that is flexible, family, friends, my health and that of the people I love.
For now, I'm going to just write (type) without re-reading my words. This is my online journal of my journey. I decided during the dog walk I just returned from, that I will undertake this journey with grace, with patience and with loving kindness.
So, thoughts. I have started by making some simple changes. I have cut out carbs from my lunch and dinner - no bread, pasta, rice, potatoes, cous cous, etc. I am cutting down "treats" aka junk like crisps and chocolate and cake. I do a basic intermittent fasting, in so much that we all do - overnight while we sleep, from after dinner until about 9.30am or 10am. However, I do crack open a can of coke zero every morning by around 9am. This is my version of tea or coffee as I drink neither, and I have no plans to cut that out as yet. However, I do want to push it back until at least 10am, and to drink more water. Sometimes I realise that I only have my first proper drink of water in the late morning, or occasionally after lunch.
I have committed to spending 30 minutes twice a week on our stationary bike - I try to do a form of HIIT, by varying the speed and intensity, but for now, I just want to be in the habit, rather than pushing too much too soon.
I am making my own lunches for work - partly for health reasons and partly to save money - Boots Meal Deals add up!
What else? I have a bought a gratitude journal, I think its called The Three Minute Diary, or something like that. I am determined to make this a daily habit. This is for my emotional well-being. To focus on that which I am grateful for.
And for now, that's enough.
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